*excuse me!*

Being a size 12 fucking sucks. Im short and stubby, i want to be super skinny like everyone else. Or unhealthy beyond repair. I need help, i know i do. I cant go on like this. I cant even cope, like SHing is out the window, without that im even worse in the head. After my camp i hope to start over with my diet, bare minimum. All untill oct hopefully when i go on holiday i will be at least 8stone or something. I want to. This is sick, i know but MH sucks. So fucking bad. Excuse me for my french, im repulsive.